{"id":5715,"date":"2020-09-12T13:51:41","date_gmt":"2020-09-12T17:51:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/?p=5715"},"modified":"2020-09-12T14:14:01","modified_gmt":"2020-09-12T18:14:01","slug":"episode-116-violence-in-my-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/?p=5715","title":{"rendered":"episode  116   VIOLENCE IN MY LIFE"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>\n<div class=\"\">Note: &nbsp;You may be sick of this biography. &nbsp;Fine. &nbsp;Don\u2019t read it. &nbsp;Simple. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<p>EPISODE 116 &nbsp; VIOLENCE IN MY LIFE &nbsp;Part One<\/p>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"55EBBE0D-E54F-44D2-8C73-C916E9E872DF\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_97bca.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Sometimes &nbsp;my imagination takes over in my life. &nbsp;Memory can be faulty but always contains<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a kernel of truth or perhaps some events are so shocking that they get locked into our brains<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">and are easy &nbsp;to recall. &nbsp;In this picture I must be eight years old. &nbsp;Visiting our grandparents<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">farm which was a very safe place to be in the turbulent 1940\u2019s.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"264B2AA1-694E-4144-BB47-952255BFD7E9\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_95703.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">What you see here is &nbsp;not remotely connected to my real world. &nbsp;This picture was taken in&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">western Alaska &nbsp;in 1959 when an &nbsp;American Mining company armed &nbsp;our crew with 30-06<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">rifles in case we were attacked by Kodiak &nbsp;bears. &nbsp;We never carried the rifles &nbsp;Just stacked<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">them where the helicopter dropped us. &nbsp;There was no need for violence against the bears\u2026<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">their guts were stuffed &nbsp;with dead &nbsp;or dying salmon. &nbsp;Playing guns &nbsp;as &nbsp;a child had no&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">connection &nbsp;with playing guns as an &nbsp;adult. &nbsp;Two different worlds that did &nbsp;not cross.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">alan skeoch<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">sept &nbsp;2020<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Violence is something I have tried to avoid all my life. &nbsp;I just thought about that<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">this morning while wrapped around Marjorie in our bed. &nbsp;There are people that<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">admire violence and try to replicate it in their daily life. &nbsp;I know that. I have seen<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">that. &nbsp;I have been the receiver of violence on a few rare occasions. &nbsp;Most of &nbsp;the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">time I have found ways to avoid violence. &nbsp;Like running although I cannot find<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a &nbsp;memory of running away from violence. &nbsp;I just try to avoid violence whenever<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">such a situation arrives. &nbsp;\u2018Chicken shit\u2019, was once the term.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">What in hell\u2019s half acre ever made me think of that this morning? &nbsp;I have no answer.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">But one violent incident came to mind. &nbsp;Perhaps the incident should be left to the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">end of this story. &nbsp;But I am going to put it at the first. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">University life offered so many things to do other than sit in the library and try<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">to become an intellectual like Emmanuel Kant. &nbsp; Or a writer<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">like Hemingway or Steinbeck. &nbsp; Or even a poet of folk life like Robert Frost.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Lots &nbsp;more things to do than read &nbsp;books in other words. &nbsp;Best thing was to chase<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">after Marjorie. &nbsp;Not the only thing though.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">So one day I joined a make up basketball team at Hart House. &nbsp;Victoria college<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">boys against University College boys. &nbsp;Just for fun. &nbsp;I was &nbsp;not a basketball star\u2026<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">can\u2019t even remember ever getting any points in that career. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We were playing fast. &nbsp;Running up and &nbsp;down the floor. &nbsp;Offence then defence. For some<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">strange reason a UC kid took offence at one of our players and he hit him with<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">his &nbsp;fist. &nbsp;Our player hit back. &nbsp;The two of them tumbled and wrestled with lots of<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">expletives like \u201cYou son of a bitch\u201d and \u201cbastard\u201d between blows. &nbsp;It was not nice<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">so for some reason I &nbsp;cannot explain I decided to break up the fight. &nbsp;To pry them<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">apart. &nbsp;To be the peacemaker, a role I admired in the larger world of the United Nations.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Peacemaking did not work. &nbsp;Instead the UC guy turned on me. &nbsp;He grabbed &nbsp;me<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">by the throat with both hands and began to strangle me. &nbsp;I remember so clearly<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">falling to the floor and looking up at &nbsp;his face. &nbsp;I knew him. &nbsp;At least I knew \u2018of him\u2019<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">because his family were famous &nbsp;lawyers in Toronto. &nbsp;His face seemed joyful.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">He kept pressing on my throat. &nbsp;Choking me. &nbsp;For no reason other than the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">love of &nbsp;violence. &nbsp;How to survive? &nbsp; I think I faked &nbsp;passing out\u2026or maybe<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I did pass out for a moment. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I know that memory may seem trivial to any person reading this story but<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">it was not trivial to me. &nbsp;What I saw in his face was &nbsp;a love of violence.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">He liked beating people up &nbsp;That was why he played &nbsp;basketball on that<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">winter afternoon at Hart House. &nbsp;The bible says something about \u201cBlessed<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">are the peacemakers for they shall inherit\u2019\u2026something or other. &nbsp;Not true<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I realized that day<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">So this story is going to be about my confrontations with violence in my<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">82 years of life on this earth.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I have avoided violence all my life except maybe in kindergarten. &nbsp;Seems I dimly<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">remember getting pushed &nbsp;on the stairs at Kent Public School and pushing back<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">at some other five year old. &nbsp;A very misty memory. &nbsp;Reinforced by the fact the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">teacher commented the fact to my mother. &nbsp;A tale I find hard to believe. &nbsp;My&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">only sharp memory of kindergarten was the teacher saying. \u201cAll fright children,<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">time &nbsp;for your nap, everyone put your heads on the desk.\u201d &nbsp;And that is hardly<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a violent memory. &nbsp;Seemed stupid to go to school and then fall asleep with my<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">head &nbsp;on the desk. &nbsp;I may have resisted &nbsp;But I did not rebel. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Violence was all around me as a youngster. &nbsp; The larger world of incredible<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">violence &nbsp;was World &nbsp;War II of which my brother and I were largely unaware.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We lived in a climate of &nbsp;make believe violence for we loved playing \u2018guns\u2019<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">together. &nbsp; In the winter of 1944 we built a big snow fort on the front lawn of&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">18 Sylvan Avenue and then defended imaginary attackers with guns made out<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">of broomsticks. &nbsp; &nbsp;This &nbsp;was not violence nor was it training for violence. &nbsp;This<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">was imagination and fun. &nbsp; Mom took us to the movies regularly where we watched<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Slip Mahoney and the Bowery Boys act out silliness. &nbsp;Then walking home in<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">the dark on Fall or winter evenings &nbsp;Eric and I would play \u2018guns\u2019 without even<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">thinking of the deeper meaning of &nbsp;that foolishness. &nbsp;I remember being shot<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">by Eric on one of those nights\u2026imaginary bullet hit me\u2026and I died in a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">great dramatic sprawl through a pile of leaves ready to be burned. Lucky<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I did not land on some dog turds. &nbsp;But the drama was great. &nbsp;Made greater<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">by a woman &nbsp;passing by who &nbsp;really thought I was hurt badly or dead.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Until mom came along saying, \u201cJust the boys playing guns\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We &nbsp;lived &nbsp;in a cocoon of non violence at home. &nbsp;Protected and &nbsp;secure<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">and loving. &nbsp;Made so mostly by mom but reinforced by Dad when the horses<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">were not running at Dufferin &nbsp;Racetrack across the park from our house.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"E525B9F6-7A23-4F1B-A496-2A998D384548\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/GhWsSAi1Q426hFCGIxVA_thumb_95652.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Mom &nbsp;and dad seemed pleased &nbsp;with having a &nbsp;baby around. &nbsp; So they wove a cocoon around me\u2026and later around Eric.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"32F9322A-ECA9-424C-B1BF-2A3C4F8ACD3D\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_92d71.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Mom made all our clothes. &nbsp; She also enriched our imaginations. &nbsp;Dad was a gambler and the kind of &nbsp;father<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I wished most children could have had. &nbsp;Eric &nbsp;and I remember them both with great affection. They protected us.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"6A037F1B-D96F-4A81-8B38-D25E051C0D7D\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_96296.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Eric and I loved playing guns. &nbsp; It was &nbsp;an &nbsp;imaginary world for us. &nbsp;Occasionally the two worlds &nbsp;collided &nbsp;as in this picture taken<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">at the cannon that protects Howard House in High Park from American invaders. &nbsp;We &nbsp;were around &nbsp;10 or 11 years &nbsp;old.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Outside the cocoon there was violence. &nbsp;The real world scared me. &nbsp;People&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">did nasty things to each other in that real world.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">It was easy to separate the two &nbsp;worlds by the way. &nbsp; Some psychological<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">whizz bangs will say I am wrong. &nbsp; Will believe that imagination can be<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a learning ground for violence. &nbsp;Bull shit!<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"F32154DC-3551-40D8-9517-F10436505106\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_92d56.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Comfort\u2026security\u2026non-violence. &nbsp;Encouraged by Grandma and Grandpa Freeman who provided an escape from<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">the gang warfare we &nbsp;witnessed in Dufferin Park in the postwar years of the 1940\u2019s<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">At Kent Public School I could have gotten the shit knocked out of me<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">were it not for my friend Karl Slalberg. &nbsp;Karl and his mom lived in a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">tiny apartment\u2026two rooms I think\u2026in a house on a street north of Bloor<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">St. &nbsp; I know that because his mom had &nbsp;me over a couple of times.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Karl got into some kind of trouble. &nbsp;\u201cJuvenile &nbsp;Delinquent\u201d was the term<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">used I think. &nbsp; That mystified &nbsp;me because he was such a nice kid. &nbsp;No father<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">around. &nbsp; But Karl protected me. &nbsp;Funny because he must have &nbsp;been the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">same age &nbsp;as me. &nbsp;Perhaps Grades 3 or 4 when we were 8 or 9 &nbsp;years old.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cAlan, we could earn a lot of marbles with this cigar box.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cHow?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cCut little pieces out \u2026 some big, some small\u2026all holes in<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">which a marble could get through with difficulty.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cOh, that game. &nbsp;The big boys play it every day at recess\u2026lots of<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">cigar boxes put against the wall. &nbsp;Get the &nbsp;marble through the hole<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">and &nbsp;win &nbsp;&#8220;Two &nbsp;for &nbsp;One\u201d for the big hole or \u201cFive for One\u201d for the little&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">hole. &nbsp;Miss the holes and lose your marble. &nbsp;Most of us lose our marbles.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cRight. &nbsp;So let\u2019s set up our own cigar box. &nbsp;Win lots of marbles.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">So we did. &nbsp;Karl got the cigar box ready\u2026cut the holes, wrote numbers<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">above the holes. &nbsp;We took our place against the school wall and invited<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">marble gamblers to take chance. &nbsp;Big payoff\u2026maybe five to one or higher.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Karl left me in charge of the cigar box often. &nbsp;One particular time, however,<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">got ground into my memory. &nbsp;I stood beside the box and a big guy..maybe<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a kid as ancient as ten or eleven years old\u2026this big guy rolled his marble<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">right into the big pay off hole. &nbsp;I owed him ten marbles. &nbsp;Ten marbles!<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I had no marbles. &nbsp;We expected to earn marbles. &nbsp;We expected &nbsp;marble<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">gamblers to lose most of the time. &nbsp;We expected &nbsp;to build &nbsp;up our capital<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">starting at zero.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cOK, kid, you owe me ten marbles.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cI can\u2019t. &nbsp;I have no marbles.\u201d &nbsp;I said weakly, my knees trembling.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cPay up!\u201d &nbsp;he &nbsp;demanded. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Then things got really nasty. &nbsp;Other boys gathered around. &nbsp;I was about to<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">be punched when Karl arrived. &nbsp;He was a great fighter. &nbsp;An even better threatener.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Nothing happened. &nbsp; Maybe Karl said he would pay tomorrow or just Karl\u2019s<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">presence defused &nbsp;the situation. &nbsp; I learned a big lesson that day. &nbsp;A couple of big&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">lessons. &nbsp;First, do not make promises you cannot deliver. &nbsp;Second, violence<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">is easy to trigger\u2026harder to reduce.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I know this sounds silly but the memory is clear\u202675 years after the fact.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I had an even earlier memory of violence. &nbsp;A memory that today I find hard<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">to believe. &nbsp;Did this really happen? &nbsp;Grade one maybe. &nbsp;Six or seven years old.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Our nice teacher &nbsp;gave all of us a cucumber from his &nbsp;garden. &nbsp;Male teacher I<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">seem to recall although that does not matter. &nbsp;A cucumber. &nbsp;Small one. &nbsp;What a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">prize. &nbsp;But how can I get it home for mom? &nbsp;&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Getting home each day was difficult because I had to cross through Dufferin<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Park. &nbsp;That meant crossing the ravine that ran &nbsp;at right angles blocking the route to our house<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">In 1944 or 1945. &nbsp;Our house at 18 Sylvan Avenue was &nbsp;almost right inside the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">park. &nbsp;It has been demolished now sadly. &nbsp; Crossing that ravine was like crossing<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">no man\u2019s land in our imaginary world of cops &nbsp;and robbers or cowboys &nbsp;and Indians.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Only this ravine was real and the boys hiding there were very real.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Often They frisked &nbsp;me to see what they could steal. &nbsp;Getting the cucumber home<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">was going to be very difficult. &nbsp;I &nbsp;seem to remember even being stripped in these<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">no man\u2019s land &nbsp;confrontations. &nbsp;Could &nbsp;I get the cucumber home for mom?<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">How? &nbsp; Then a solution came to me. &nbsp;My shoe! &nbsp; I hid the cucumber in my shoe<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">and managed to get it home. &nbsp;It must have been a small cucumber but it was a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">great victory. &nbsp; The violence .. potential violence .. in that ravine remains a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">powerful memory even today. &nbsp;&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Must be true because the City Parks sent a crew to cut down the bushes and<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">trees in that ravine. &nbsp;Today &nbsp;it is just a dip in the grass of Dufferin Park. &nbsp;Some\u2019<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">of the ravine has been in filled with subsoil to make a skating rink. &nbsp;Did the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">city do this because of the dangers. &nbsp;Or is that just my imagination. &nbsp;Did &nbsp;any of<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">this really happen? &nbsp;It must have. &nbsp;How big was that cucumber in my shoe? &nbsp;Did<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I walk with a fake limp? &nbsp;Would mom make us a cucumber sandwich?<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Dad made a lot of mistakes in his life\u2026some of which I have told in earlier<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Episodes. &nbsp;Most of them were funny in retrospect. &nbsp;But one that I remember<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">was anything but funny.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cRed, can you babysit the boys tonight\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cI &nbsp;will be working late.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cOK\u2026Harumph\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Dad did not play games with us. &nbsp;He treated us as miniature adults<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">really or as interlopers who got between him and the horses racing<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">at Dufferin Racetrack. &nbsp;He would have preferred to take us to the racetrack<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">but no horses were running at night.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">That particular night he decided to fill in the time by taking us to a<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">movie at the Doric theatre down at College and &nbsp;Dufferin. &nbsp;Dad &nbsp;was not<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a motion picture movie buff. &nbsp;He &nbsp;did not even look at what was<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">playing. &nbsp;Mom, on the other hand, pre selected our movies as<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">mentioned earlier.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I will never forget that Doric movie. It scarred me for life &nbsp;I came out<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">terrified. &nbsp;I wanted to run out before it ended but Dad &nbsp;made me stay.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I think he was half asleep. &nbsp;&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">This memory is graphic. &nbsp; Not imaginary. &nbsp;I can see in my mind the time<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">and the place. &nbsp;The dark night . &nbsp;The Doric &nbsp;theatre which was a run down&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">movie house. &nbsp; What I remember clearest however was the horror of that film.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Some sinister people operated a dual business. &nbsp; They performed civil<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">marriages \u2026 couples in love tying the knot. &nbsp;Loving &nbsp;couples. &nbsp;Especially<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">couples with no kinfolk to get in the way. &nbsp;After the marriage ceremony<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">the couples were murdered. &nbsp;Their bodies kept in a dark place at the&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">back of the business. &nbsp;Why murdered? &nbsp;So they could &nbsp;be robbed I think.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">The murders terrified me so &nbsp;much that for weeks, months afterward<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I would not go to a movie theatre. &nbsp;Not even a silly Bowery Boys movie.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I had nightmares about the movie and &nbsp;still do. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I think Dad thought I was a bit touched in the head. &nbsp;He did not<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">see the movie. &nbsp;Mom wondered what had &nbsp;happened as I was &nbsp;white<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">in the face and trembling. &nbsp;Gutless some of you might say. &nbsp;I did &nbsp;not<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">like violence.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We saw lots of violence. &nbsp;Eric and I. &nbsp;It was all centred &nbsp;in Dufferin Park<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">where groups of \u2018big guys and &nbsp;big girls\u201d &nbsp;congregated. &nbsp;&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Dufferin Park was &nbsp;Beanery Gang territory. &nbsp;Lots of things happened<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">there. &nbsp;Seems I remember being under a forsythia bush in the ravine&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">watching two people tossing around each other in sexual paradise.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">That memory must be close to reality as well since Eric and I collected<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">used &nbsp;safes at one point. &nbsp;(Sheiks was the brand name as I remember).<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cMom, they make great balloons.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cDon\u2019t touch those dirty old things.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cBut mom!\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cGarbage..put them in the garbage now.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">The jumping around under the forsythia bushes did &nbsp;not seem that violent.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">The violence came when the Junction gang invaded &nbsp;Beanery Gang territory.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Gangs fought viciously. &nbsp; Gang fights? &nbsp;Was it plural\u2026i.e many gang fights.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Or was it just one &nbsp;gang fight that we saw. &nbsp;Likely just one which my &nbsp;imagination<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">has pluralized. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">It was very violent. &nbsp;Weapons were involved Knives and lead pipes\u2026.perhaps<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">baseball bats. &nbsp;Which memories &nbsp;are most graphic. &nbsp;Which memories are likely real<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">in other words. &nbsp; One stands out. &nbsp;A gang member was trying to protect his girlfriend<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u2026fighting some guy face on when another guy came up from behind and hit him<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">over the head with a lead pipe. &nbsp;He dropped to the ground. &nbsp; Another incident<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">occurred near our house on Sylvan Avenue when a police officer caught one of the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">gang members and &nbsp;had him spread eagled on the squad &nbsp;car hood.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">How true was this? &nbsp; The strange thing is that I cannot find written records<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">of these gang fights. &nbsp; Seems &nbsp;they would be big news. &nbsp; Are they only in my mind.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">So graphic to me. &nbsp;Just down Gladstone Avenue was the home of the Simmons<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">family whose boys were gang members as I remember. &nbsp;Toenails Simmons was<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">in jail I think. &nbsp; His brother showed Eric and &nbsp;I how to make a knuckle duster<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">out of a &nbsp;sharpened roofing nail and some white &nbsp;medical tape. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cJust hone the nail to a sharp point with a file\u2026needle point\u2026then<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">put the flat part of the nail on your finger. &nbsp;Bind it there &nbsp;by winding&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">white tape around it. &nbsp;Make sure the tape covers the sharpened&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">point. &nbsp;If a fight happens then your fist becomes a &nbsp;better weapon . one&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">blow with the fist and the nail pops through and cuts the other guy.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Mom feared Eric &nbsp;and &nbsp;I would &nbsp;get drawn into the gangs. &nbsp;That&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">was why we moved &nbsp;to 455 Annette Street in 1948 or 1949.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">How she managed to do that is one of the wonders of our lives.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">She did it \u2026bought a small rather begraggled house in a very nice<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">neighbourhood.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">END PART ONE: &nbsp;VIOLENCE IN MY LIFE<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">P&gt;S. &nbsp; I nearly forgot the Robertson&#8217;s Candy Truck heist. &nbsp;That was also&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a lesson in violence. &nbsp;Rather a lesson in how to avoid violence. &nbsp;Eric &nbsp;and<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I witnessed &nbsp;a bunch of boys stealing boxes &nbsp;of candy bars from the<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">back &nbsp;of the Robertson Candy truck. &nbsp;They got a few boxes and then ran<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">like hell down Dufferin. &nbsp; We knew who they were. &nbsp;We saw &nbsp;what happened.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">A policeman came and asked for witnesses and &nbsp;Eric and &nbsp;I did the&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">right thing. &nbsp;Or the wrong thing. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cAny witnesses?\u201d said the cop<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cWe saw what happened\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cDid you see who stole the the candy?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cYes.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cDo you know where they live?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cYes.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cWill you take me there?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cYyyyes.\u201d &nbsp;(less confident voice)<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">So he &nbsp;drove us down to the thieves house on Dufferin just<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">below College St. &nbsp;The policeman knocked on the door and<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">a woman answered. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cDo you have boys?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cI do.\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cCan I see them for a moment?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">(two boys came to the door)<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">\u201cAre these the boys that stole the boxes candy?\u201d<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">That was when I became aware that Eric and i had<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">made a big mistake. &nbsp;We were snitching big time. &nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We were also inviting violence if these boys decided<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">to get even. &nbsp;We were scared. &nbsp; &nbsp;Nothing bad really<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">happened. &nbsp;We were not punched out as I remember<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">but we were scared. &nbsp;We deserved to be punched out<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I thought.&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">Since then I believe that policeman was not thinking<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">straight by putting Eric and I in &nbsp;danger.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\">P.P.S. &nbsp; In another disgusting moment of potential &nbsp;violence<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">I became &nbsp;aware of the courage of my brother. &nbsp;We had<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">been surrounded &nbsp;in the park by a group of tough kids.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">We knew them but did not associate with them. &nbsp;I think I<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">best not tell the full story however. &nbsp;Suffice it to say they<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">had disgusting plans for us. &nbsp;First they picked on Eric and<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">he Refused their orders no matter what. &nbsp;And he<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">was prepared to fight even if outnumbered and likely to lose\u2026<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">even with my help. &nbsp;I had thought the wiser course was to<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">run away but that would &nbsp;have been difficult. &nbsp; They backed<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">down eventually so nothing really happened except I was proud<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">of my brother. &nbsp;These same boys &nbsp;had broken into a fort<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">we had made out of wooden barrels and scrap &nbsp;lumber.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\">They used the fort as a toilet.<\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><br class=\"\"><\/div>\n<div class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"4840A896-C271-4E9A-ADE4-A5E57047FCF8\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_95655.jpg\" class=\"\"><img decoding=\"async\" apple-inline=\"yes\" id=\"B7038C2D-2E29-4E6C-A00C-806CE57767A6\" src=\"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/UNADJUSTEDNONRAW_thumb_9629b.jpg\" class=\"\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Note: &nbsp;You may be sick of this biography. &nbsp;Fine. &nbsp;Don\u2019t read it. &nbsp;Simple. &nbsp; EPISODE 116 &nbsp; VIOLENCE IN MY LIFE &nbsp;Part One Sometimes &nbsp;my imagination takes over in my life. &nbsp;Memory can be faulty but always contains a kernel of truth or perhaps some events are so shocking that they get locked into our [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5715","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5715","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5715"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5715\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5715"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5715"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alanskeoch.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5715"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}